May 24, 2010

A nagging tenant...

As most of you know I am the proud owner of an autoimmune disease...or two...well, okay, probably three but the jury is still out on that last one.  You see, once one is the owner of one autoimmune disease the body will sometimes decide the more the merrier and allow others to join the party.

Just as an FYI this is what Wikipedia says about the autoimmune disease..."Autoimmune diseases arise from an overactive immune response of the body against substances and tissues normally present in the body. In other words, the body actually attacks its own cells."

Sounds great, huh?

For some people every day with an autoimmune disease is a challenge.  For some it is an actual nightmare.  I however am one of the lucky few whose diseases usually lie low.  In fact, other than your occasional buzzing and numbness mine don't mess with me much.  With that said I feel terribly guilty when one does rear their ugly head and I act all whiny about it - which is what I am doing today.

Today my nemesis is Sjogren's Syndrom. 

Sjogren's is a chronic autoimmune disease in which a person's white blood cells attack their moisture producing glands.  Although the hallmark symptoms are dry eyes and dry mouth Sjogren's can also cause complications throughout the entire body. 

My symptoms always occur in the left eye.  It has probably been two years since the last "flare" but I woke up this morning with a blood-red inner part of the "white of my eye" and swollen lid.  Looks like I'll be visiting with the Opthamologist tomorrow.

Here's the thing.  It's not that these symptoms are so painful; they are more irritating than painful.  The real issue is the reminder they bring.  A reminder of the unknown possibilities that lurk within my body.  And, yes, I understand we all have unknown possibilities.  The difference is my possibilities occasionally knock on the door...they knock to remind me that they have already taken up residence and will be a nagging and unpredictable tenant the remainder of my life.

10 comments:

bj said...

Hi, Kimbo...thanks for stopping in today.
So sorry your tenant is being contrary right now.
I was shocked the first time I read your profile and saw MS. I had no idea.
Hope you feel much better today.
xo jean

Tammy said...

Stopping by and following from SITS! I am so sorry to hear about your health. I have several friends in blogoland who have to struggle every day with issues like this. I hope your eye feels better later today. I hope you are feeling better!

cheri said...

i hope it's not as bad as it sounds. hope you feel better :)

from SITS :)

Keri said...

I love your attitude, and that can go a long, long way in dealing with this junk. Keep writing about it. Maybe one day it will all be spewed out on paper/computer, never to live in your body again. Love your blog. Keri a.k.a.

Aleta said...

You write so naturally, so real and in such a way that it's understandable, when medicine and conditions are anything but understandable.

This was a beautiful post. You're an amazing woman. Sending prayers and positive thoughts your way!

Teresa @ ♥ Too Many Heartbeats ♥ said...

Oh, how I feel your pain! I see you haven't posted in a few days. I hope you are doing OK. Keeping you close in prayer.

{{HUGS}}

Teresa <><

Anonymous said...

Bless your heart! I am so sorry that you have to deal with this and I know first hand how it feels to have a "bad eye". Hope you are feeling better real soon. Take care~ xoxo Susie

Bossy Betty said...

What a challenge. Thinking of you....

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